Unrequited love's a bitch

I don't have the confidence to walk up to someone and ask them out or tell someone I like them, especially someone I'm acquainted with and that is a problem. There's someone I like, I've liked him for the best part of a year. I see him on a semi-regular basis at work, it's never guaranteed when he'll be in but when he does come in my heart races and I go all quiet, my philosophy is 'don't say anything at all and you won't say something stupid'
He's a customer so when I do have to speak to him it's always the same few lines. I don't know him well enough to randomly strike up a conversation. I have absolutely no courage. It would probably be perfectly easy to and he probably wouldn't read too much into it but there's also that small chance that his face would twist, that look of revulsion in his eyes and the hand gesture to shoo me away and I'd be left a blubbering mess and red faced.

I made a point of smiling at him the last few times he's come in. I smile at everyone else and in my efforts not to look like some idiot in love with him my face was doing a weird scowling thing. Not in the slightest bit attractive.
My goals
1) smile at him when I serve him
2) Say goodbye when he leaves
3) don't be mean to other people when he's around.


In other news I'm trying to watch what I eat, I'm not exactly fat but I am a little heavier than I'd like to be. I'd be perfectly happy just dropping one dress size. I've already gotten into a routine of doing more exercise than I'm used to but I've noticed that my intake of food has gone up. I'm considering counting my calories. It seems like the simplest way, burn more calories than I'm taking in. We'll see how that goes.